Why does stuff with my Mom hurt so much?
Oh..maybe it's because she basically fucking ABANDONED me. For real, do I even want her to be normal at this point? If she did become normal, could I forget about all the things she's already done to me?

At this point though, maybe if she changed..it would mean a lot more.

My Grandma is the only Mom I've had, and she's been a great one. But she won't be around forever, or as logn as a Mom usually would..
What if my Grandma isn't around when I get married? I don't think even if my Mom was around, I'd want her at my wedding..IF she was around.
Yep, that's all for now.